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So the past quite some while. I'd say this is the best way to describe the way I've been feeling....so yea...

Linkin Park: By Myself

What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams?
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Or do I trust none and live in loneliness?
Because I can't hold on when I'm streached so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself [myself]

I ask why, but in my mind
I find I cant rely on myself

I ask why, but in my mind
I find I cant rely on myself

[Chorus:]
I cant hold on
To what I want when Im stretched so thin
Its all too much to take in
I cant hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in

If I
Turn my back Im defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on then theyll
Take from me till everything is gone
If I let them go Ill be outdone
But if I try to catch them Ill be outrun
If Im killed by the questions like a cancer
Then Ill be buried in the silence of the answer
by myself [myself]

I ask why, but in my mind
I find I cant rely on myself

I ask why, but in my mind
I find I cant rely on myself

[Chorus:]
I cant hold on
To what I want when Im stretched so thin
Its all too much to take in
I cant hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in

How do you think Ive lost so much
I'm so afraid that I'm out of touch
How do you expect... I will know what to do
When all I know Is what you tell me to

Dont you know
I cant tell you how to make it go
No matter what I do, how hard I try
I cant seem to convince myself why
Im stuck on the outside

Dont you know
I cant tell you how to make it go
No matter what I do, how hard I try
I cant seem to convince myself why
Im stuck on the outside

[Chorus:]
I cant hold on
To what I want when Im stretched so thin
Its all too much to take in
I cant hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in

[Chorus:]
I cant hold on
To what I want when Im stretched so thin
Its all too much to take in
I cant hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in