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She sat slumped in front of her computer happily sighing her heart jumped up her throat. She felt so relived like she had be standing up all day and could finally sit down that it brought tears to her eyes. she thought back to twenty four hours before and was amazing yesterday she seriously thought of slaying herself but today she is willing to kill anyone that will kill her mood. She lightly laughed and closed her eyes. He was right, everything worked out, and finally she was happy. Yesterday she scoffed at thought that she would ever smile again. She remembered the two different pains she felt in her heart the first was the day before, it hurt with such pain that she thought she deserved that pain but today that pain was sharp and longing, it was a pleasant feel. She could barely breath, she never thought things would be the same as before, better actually. The day before thinking would bring her instant pain but now it brought her instant pleasure. Even if they only talked for five mintues she felt like they had talked for hours. She would seriously hold him to his promise and she would hold herself to hers. She loved him and he loved her... and they were best friends. Not possible right? Wrong! She sighed once more at the thoughts that clouded her brain. She remembered that feeling that she had that mornign when she eagerly jumped out of her warm bed to talk to him... to tell him she was all she could think about. Her last thoughths that night before were of them... together in a bed alseep. Ahh what a pleasant thought. A girl could wish right? But truly she thought of him all day he didnt slip her mind once.


Haha once again she beginning me... as you can tell i can write easier when it seems like a story about someone else that i can over exagrate and under exagerate.


i heart you connor