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I'd like to apologize for all the stuff I said in my last entry. None of it's really true (except for the whole Julia not loving me anymore bit). I took the weekend to really reflect over what my problems really are, and I have to say they are a doozy. I realized that I'm too clingy. I always have been. I guess that I just kind of think that I'm never gonna get a chance like that, and I cling to it with every ounce of strength. Which is also why I get so jealous. I get scared that whoever I'm with is gonna leave me.

Well, I'd like to asy that that fear was justified, because Julia did leave me because of someone else. It's totally obvious, so it doesn't matter how much she denies it. Well, good luck mystery dude, because you have your hands full.

In the meantime, I've decided not to dwell on it. I mean, I still have feelings for her, but they're fading. Meanwhile, I should continue on my quest for true love. I've thought long and hard about who I should try for next, and there's a long list of possibilities. People who know me are forbidden to tell any of these girls.

Tiara: I've always thought that Tiara was pretty, but it always seemed that she was just beyond my reach, so I didn't try for her. Besides, if there is anything between me and her, I'd perfer to wait until after the her breakup with Thomas has been resolved. I don't want to take advantage of a girl when she's down. It's ungentlemanly.

Sam: Now, I don't know if Sam's name is short for something, but she is stunningly beautiful, and more to my taste in women. However, I think that she has a boyfriend, so I won't pursue her. I don't want to be a reason for a breakup. However, I will try to become a good friend to her. I do want to be there for her if something's wrong. If I can't be close, I'll at least be a decent friend.

Crystal: For those of you that know me, you should already know that I had a major crush on Crystal in 7th grade. She is extremely pretty, and lights up the room with her smile. But, I know that she has a boyfriend, so the same circumstances apply. At least I have class with Crystal.

Joey: Joey being short for Joanna, I have nursed a soft spot for her for a very long time. She is single, so that is a plus, but I know for a fact that she isn't looking for a relationship right now. Maybe in the future.

Courtney: Courtney is a cute girl that I've nursed a soft spot for a while now too. It is really too bad that she sees me as a brother. And also, I think that she's a bit too young for me. Ah, well. I can't have everything.

Purple: A nickname for Arianna. I've thought that she was pretty for a very long time. But I think that Elijiah has his eyes on her. The jerk should probably focus on the girl that DOES like him instead of the girl that can't stand him.

Julia: I know that it seems wild, but maybe if I can change my ways and show it to her, she'll come back to me. It's a long shot, but it's worth a try. It's possible, right?

Anyway, if any of you know someone who might like me, please let me know. I wanna get back to my search for true love ASAP. Oh, and BTW: xXDoomforgerXx is my friend, so tease the hell out of him for me.

Yours Hopefully,
Phoenix