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To Day My Phycologist Hsk Me To Tell Him About Myself So I Told Him He Said I belong Institutionalized I, I Already Have Been 4 Times Maby He's Right Or Maby He Dosent Understand.


This Is What ITold Him

I Dont Want To Live But I Have To Why He Asked So I Can kill The World Why Beacause The world deserves it i hate it and It's People And All The Crap With it Why Do I Want This World To Suffer And Die Why Do I Hate It No Reason I Just Hate It And Want It To Pay I Dont Know It's Just What I Feel Like Doing It's My Job Yes I Have Dreams But I Also Have Suffering To Do He Asked Me If I Was Scared Is That Why I Am Out To Distroy The World I Told Him The Only Thing I Am Scared Of Is Myself Because I Have Done Alot Of Things So Far And If I Came A Cross My self I Would Be Scared He Asked Me What Did I Do I Couldent Tell Him What I Really Have Done And What Will Come In The Near Future I Told Him Also How I Was In Capable Of Emotion The Only Emotion I Feel Is Hate And Happy I Also Told Him At funarals I Dont Cry I Smile Beacaue Thats One Less Mortal I HAve To Deal With He Asked Me Do I Have Any Thing I Value And Love I Told Him I Used To But Not Any More I Love The Goths And Loners Why He Asked Be cause They Know How To get On With There Life And Wait To Die Like Good Little MortalsThey Also Under Stan Why I Am The Way I Am THe Only Values I Have Are Games And Animals Then All Fell Silent He Said See You Agaian Some Other Time And Perscribed Me Some Meds.

You Probly Wondering Why I Was Institutionalized

One: When I Was 10 I Hanged Myself To See What Would Happen If I Died {Failed}

Two: I Broke Into A School Because I Was Bored { Got Out Good Behavoir }

Three: Making Deals With The Devil { Almost Worked }

Four: Last Year Trying To Kill Kids At My Alternative School And Tacher Felt Very Scared Of ME So He Called The Cops And My Pychologist But I Failed There Crazy Test And Got Out

Next Time I Might Stay For Good