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	My Life as a Nerd/Rocker! About what goes on in my life
	My Life as a Nerd/Rocker! About what goes on in my life

	Catching up on my life
	Catching up on my life


I don't know if I already wrote about my back problems so im gonna start from there. Well I basicly broke my back around may. I'm not going into details but the coach's are really bitchy and get pissed if your not doing good but i told them anyways that my back was hurting and i didn't know if i should lift and they told me to lift anyway so in the end i broke my back. the school only gave me twenty five dollars a surgery i think which is ****** bull st. i think each surgery cost 2000 and i have had 4 so far. Not to mention the massive amount of pain i in the whole summer. i was bed ridden from may to early september. I couldn't hang out with my friends. i barely ate which made me lose 30 ****** pounds i was in pain almost 24/7. if i dropped anything i was skrewed unless someone was home. i remember one time i dropped my massager (massaging made some of the pain go away) and i dropped my house phone and my cell phone had died cuz the charger fell also so i couldn't call for help and i was in alot of pain since i dropped the massager which dulled the pain a little. when my mom arrived for lunch i was laying on the bed crying in pain. sometimes i wanted to die. i barely slept and i woke up around six every day and i think i usually went to bed around 2 or 3. I'm going have back problems the rest of my life and thats going to be a long time since im only 16. well and upside of this story i met two of my friends over the internet while i was stuck in bed. i met kandise and my now girlfriend marie. i love marie alot. they both helped me through the summer and kept me out being deppressed. i had my latest surgery in august and it took the out of my left leg and increased the pain in my back and right leg massively. my nurse after surgery was a bh she told me to sit up and just handle the pain. basicly the whole time she was telling me to stop bitching. then when they wanted to get me to walk another nurse was laughing at me cuz i was wincing and was walking funny because of the pain. when i got home i was crying so bad i never wanted to die so much in my entire life. i got another surgery in september so sept. was my latest. it made almost all of the pain go away but now its starting come back. so i walked around with a cane for a while in school and everyone made fun of me all the time. but i did get treated nicer by some people. well im much better now no cane and most of the time no funny walking smile* . So it was christmas yesterday and i got a electric guitar exclaim a helicopter thing which is alot of fun a ring from marie which barely take off, a watch, this chain thing with my name on it, so now im all blinged out lol i got this tight a jacket with skulls on it and a skeleton playing the guitar and rose petals falling down around but the jacket is white and everything but the rose petals is black or gray so the petals stand out. i got another jacket this one was aeropostle i think. oh a blanket and a amp. So i've been playing the guitar since i got it and i know most of holiday by greenday and most of homecoming by hey monday. well i have to play both songs slow because i can't play fast without messing up alot sweatdrop so i guess you are caught up on my boring life. i know this journal entry was boring so don't comment about it being boring. Much madness is divinest sense To a discerning eye; Much sense the starkest madness. 'Tis the majority In this, as all, prevails. Assent, and you are sane; Demur, -- you're straightway dangerous, And handled with a chain. xPainIsNothingx** · Sat Dec 27, 2008 @ 06:08am · 1 Comments


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Much madness is divinest sense
To a discerning eye;
Much sense the starkest madness.
'Tis the majority
In this, as all, prevails.
Assent, and you are sane;
Demur, -- you're straightway dangerous,
And handled with a chain.

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Sat Dec 27, 2008 @ 07:05am

i know how you feel sweetie i was there for u ever chance that i could!! I'm sowwie about your back!! I love you soo much!!!!! : heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart

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