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my greatest wish in life , that was a hard on for me, i guess in my mind there was never any stuff private to me, all i ever hear was theything was a group thing, but family isn't a bad thing.
My mom , she's my hero, she work hard for me and my twin, even when she was sick. she still does, she strong, and i love her for that, she the closes thing i have to a best friend ( until she goes mother mode on me anyways.)

Dad, i think i always put him as a victum in my life and i know he dosen't deserve that, some people in my family even tell me i don't respect him like a should have, as a daughter, but for me it was hard , i get every time he tried to encourage me he did in a wrong way and it kibnd mess me up it was alway like "be more like your cousin", so i offen thought " he he doesn't respect me why should i", but i'm wrong i'm lucky enough, my dad never layed a hand on me, cause he knows how that feel like. So to me i'm lucky enogh to have a dad.

My sister, yea she a brat, but she's the only one i got, my mom love her sister, even though she was the erend girl in the family, she was still happy, but she lost her sister and with out her noting been the same, so i'm guessing with out my sister there be a piece of me missing too.

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but even though i have a great family, i'm the the strongest as i show everyone on my out side appearence, to tell you the truth i'm not strong at all i'm just a invisible girl, everything i do , i do to cover the empty feeling i feel inside me, you know when you have best friend and a strong connecting with your mom, and they look at your face they can instantly tell something wrong with you, well i lost that conection, or better i never had that, evryday i'm with my friends, they say the same stuff " Ami so dunmb", "your such a liar." "just shut up ami.", even though i were a smile on my face no one seems to notice it fake, evenwith my mom, one i pass her she looks at me in the eyes but she can never tell , she just walk has me like if im air itself,
I'm guessing no wish or prayer will help, cuz this have been the 35 wish i made, but, what ppl don't notice, is my greatest wish would be: for one to notice me for me!!!

P.s.: some wish huh!