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Joy of joys, I'm depressed, again~

Note the sarcasm. Four months of therapy and an amazing girlfriend pulled me out of it, two months of no therapy and said girlfriend breaking up with me put me back into it. I can't go through a single day without crying. I have to force myself to eat. And it's all her ******** fault. I told her that I didn't hate her. But I realized that I do. I was the only that trusted her anymore, and I was wrong.

Many a time, I've contemplated killing myself, but I'm more afraid of death than misery. After all, I know I'll find somebody; misery loves company. But, I have to get over her, first. The real kicker? She had a boyfriend the very next day.

I was nothing to her. Absolutely nothing. Every word she uttered was a lie. I remember the day she broke up with me. She tried to not let me hold her hand. She walked with her hands folded behind her head... Walking to the bus, I kissed her, like always, and she didn't return it. I knew something was wrong; she wouldn't say...

That night, she broke up with me over Skype. I cried for three hours. She didn't cry at all. I'm still crying over it. She's moved on and is happy.

I'm messed up. The only thing I can do anymore is write. Even then, my feelings don't get out the way I need them to. If not for a promise I made to my friend last year, I'd be cutting again.

Catch ya later
xo Mikey