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Love. It's a damning word. It holds your heart and keeps it beating till it gets bored and decides to let it beat only when it feels like it, just enough to keep you alive, but dying slowly from all the things you do that just cause pain.

I am a human in torment and pain. I'm an idiot and I want need to know far more about her than she is willing to let me know. I wish I could take it all back to the day I asked her to let me be hers, let her pass that judgement then, with all the memory of what has transpired, what'd given me greif, all that hurt her, all that shouldn't have happened...

I can't truely express to her what I feel, I want, I need. She has a good idea of what I basicly need, but she has far too much to deal with to even consider how much I ask of her.

I never wanted to be what I am now, and I hope she makes the decision soon, and reguardless of what I say or do, I pray every waking minute for her to give me the chance.

I will spend my entire life showing her she made the right choice if she takes me back. I would hand my heart, life and soul over to her if it kept her happy. I would give anything to hold her again, to have the happiness of barely a month ago, though it feels like a lifetime away.

To her: I want you to know I mean every word and far more than I could even hope to tell you.

And for everyone who cares enough to say something useful, thanks, I'm grateful.

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