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Hello all forum goers. This forum is a place for expressing emotions.
Yes... I have never posted here before, because, I had never had a problem.
I just want to know... if i'm the problem, not her.
Here's how it went.
Well, I met her in summer, she was a pretty nice girl at the time. I was, naive, lonely, and I just wanted love. So, I went out with her. At first, it was good, you know, but then, things went downhill. About a week after we were together, she started going extremely mental on me. Like, critizsing me on the way my hair looked, or what clothes I was wearing, or even how I kissed her. Which all of which I did fine.
Anyways. Afterwords, a neighborhood kid came along, and because me and her were fighting, they took up to liking each other. Eventually, I had just given up. She was, unmanagable, everything I did was wrong. I got her at the right times, I acted appropriately, I didn't take advantage of her or be mean to her. But, I accepted it. We broke up. After that, her, [call her M] went out with the neighborhood kid [call him J]. You know, I was alright with that. We all started hanging out, all the neighborhood kids. It was fun. I even told J all about how M acted around people and what to do. We were good friends.
Then, M had tooken a liking to swimming. I had a pool, so, everyone wanted to swim. So they did. Eventually, M started making accusations of me flirting, which I never did, and J started to be hostile around me. Anyways, that continued for a long time, and one day I noticed something. When J said he had to go "home", I would see him later playing with his friends. I thought, maybe he was allowed time closer to home to play. So, I didn;t think much. But then, one of my friends, [T] noticed he was hanging out with a gang of girls. So, I suspected some pimpage going on. I contacted a neighborhood friend, [K], and K told me J was known for cheating on girls, famous for stealing, lying, and destroying. My gut feeling was even more fueled when I could have sworn I overhear someone saying they were dating J not M. And, on top of that, when M was gone for a trip to Florida, J was cheating on her. I could not do anything. You see, J was sort of a, "Gangster" not really, but he hung out with a group of older women, men who smoked, and bad quality masses. What was I supposed to do? M, had for 4 months, messed with me, contradiccted me, hurt me, even when we werent dating. So me, and T took action.
I, headed the confrontation, to J, who denied all accusations. It almost got physical, but he T scared him off. [Later, T's bike was stolen.]
Then, M broke up with Jordan. I had saved her. I had helped her. LIberated her, but she acted like I had done nothing. Eventually, she pushed me so I would not even go to hang with her. Then she would come to me asking me why I had not come, and asking for an apology. Eventually, she became so measly she insisted we talk on Gaia instead. But, I'm old fashioned, so I declined.
T and M hated each other, and, always fought. I don't know why, but, after nearly a month's work,I persuaded them to come together as friends. For less than a week that worked. After that week, she had begun to randomnly snap at me, which would cause me to retaliate, pointing out her flawed arguement. Then, she would ask for an apology. She would then go on gaia and cry to me for forgiveness. T had come to like M, so T would no longer defend me. Around then, I learned from M she and a much older man had kissed in summer, so I was hurt. I acted like I wasnt but I was. Then, she continued the cycle, one day, when I apporached her in a friendly way, with a " How was your day," she responded with "Fine until you came." But as usual, she asked me for an apology, I declined, she said sorry I accepted, all repeating over and over again.
Her parents had become to act funny around me, and her brother, R, who was my friend, rarely talked to me. So I felt unwelcome. But honoring her as a person, I came when she asked. Her, being and idiot, would often start fights in her house, so her parents would hear and think bad of me.
One day, when all seemed friendly, we were all bickering towards each toher, making jokes and such, me, M and T, but then, she kicked me in the balls, and said, "Thats for all you have done!" T, who liked her, did not do anything. I was offended. It has been a month not talking to her, and I feel pretty happy about it.
My grades are improving, I'm more social, and my friends hold me in high regards. I have become more athletic, and respected. My personality has shaped, and I am confident.
But, I still wonder, even though she was crazy, If I had not played a part.
DId I handle it wrong?- x-0z-x
 DJ Shadowz · Sun Jan 18, 2009 @ 05:39pm · 0 Comments |
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