You want my romance issues? Here you go:
Ryan. ((because I've given up on Blake and Gabe))
Ryan is a nice guy. He means well, and I think he's one of the few people who can actually bounce off of my personality. I seriously think that he could be good for me, and he's openly admitted that he would date me. But there are a couple several problems.
Problem 1: I don't like him in that way, I don't think. It's not fair to him for us to be in a relationship if I can't reciprocate((vocab word of the day)) those feelings.
Problem 2: He's black.
While I don't have a problem with interracial relationships, I don't know if my parents do or not, and I don't think I can handle a relationship that I'm in not being accepted by my parents, or society for that matter. ((while it's not as bad as it use to be, it's still frowned upon by a lot of people)) While I was dating Jeremiah, Mom even told me that Dad said "What's not to like? He's white and he's good looking" or something along those lines.
So, honestly dear wife of mine, I would LOVE to take those guys that keep hitting on you off your hands, because the truth is is that I'm not going to see anything unless I lose 20-30 lbs., and even if I do, I'm not attractive in the least. People down here are shallow, and don't look at s**t that actually matter. All they care about are a pretty face and boobs. I have one of the two, and it's not the pretty face.
And I don't even know if Ryan would put up with the fact that I'm: loud, obnoxious, perverted, loud, insecure about the way I look, dirty, loud, annoying....did I mention loud????
And Ryan's even said that he's afraid to ask me out because I have a 9-inch dagger and he fears his life. You can add mean to the list as well.
This is WHY I hate being single. It's because ******** NO ONE will give me a damn chance to prove them wrong.
Happy?
</angsty teenage ranting>
Ryan. ((because I've given up on Blake and Gabe))
Ryan is a nice guy. He means well, and I think he's one of the few people who can actually bounce off of my personality. I seriously think that he could be good for me, and he's openly admitted that he would date me. But there are a couple several problems.
Problem 1: I don't like him in that way, I don't think. It's not fair to him for us to be in a relationship if I can't reciprocate((vocab word of the day)) those feelings.
Problem 2: He's black.
While I don't have a problem with interracial relationships, I don't know if my parents do or not, and I don't think I can handle a relationship that I'm in not being accepted by my parents, or society for that matter. ((while it's not as bad as it use to be, it's still frowned upon by a lot of people)) While I was dating Jeremiah, Mom even told me that Dad said "What's not to like? He's white and he's good looking" or something along those lines.
So, honestly dear wife of mine, I would LOVE to take those guys that keep hitting on you off your hands, because the truth is is that I'm not going to see anything unless I lose 20-30 lbs., and even if I do, I'm not attractive in the least. People down here are shallow, and don't look at s**t that actually matter. All they care about are a pretty face and boobs. I have one of the two, and it's not the pretty face.
And I don't even know if Ryan would put up with the fact that I'm: loud, obnoxious, perverted, loud, insecure about the way I look, dirty, loud, annoying....did I mention loud????
And Ryan's even said that he's afraid to ask me out because I have a 9-inch dagger and he fears his life. You can add mean to the list as well.
This is WHY I hate being single. It's because ******** NO ONE will give me a damn chance to prove them wrong.
Happy?
</angsty teenage ranting>
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You have a pretty face, don't say that about yourself. And you don't want my guys...really, creepers. Except for Andrew. I'd set you up with Andrew in a heartbeat. He thinks he wants cute and bubbly; he's wrong. I am nothing like him at all! You on the other hand are cute and sarcastic-slightly weird-geekish which would be perfect. (Those are all good qualities btw, at least in my book.)
Don't give up, go out and meet people, get a job at a coffee place. You'll find someone, stop being unnecessarily angsty. Angst is good, but not when it's self-deprecating angst.