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That is the message it gave me when I texted you.

I wish I could hand perfection to you on a silver platter. Peace & happiness too. But I cannot... it is physically impossible.

Help me help you. I've only got a vague idea of what you truly need; I have guesswork.

I'm trying. It is difficult to find time with my schedule.

You need to find a will... a desire to live. That doesn't have to be someONE... it should be someTHING. Your inspiration. I know you haven't tried everything. I know you haven't been around the world.

Are you afraid? There has to be a reason to give up. A reason for not wanting to go on. No, you cannot change your past... but you can come to terms with it. No matter how negative it may be.

If you have no will to be happy... then you never will be happy. Do you understand that? The real question is this: do you want to live to EXPERIENCE... or do you want to die and never experience again?

I don't want you to choose the latter. I really don't. I can only be so convincing through text, but I cannot get through to your phone... so this is all I have for now.