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You know how overwhelmed you get when something hits you like a ton of bricks? I happen to be feeling that overwhelmed at this very moment.

So many emotions are going through my mind, its really confusing me. I feel so light, yet weighted down by the constant reality of "your head it stuck in the clouds". I know my head is way up there, and I don't know if it'll ever come down.

God forbid I actually think I like someone. I choose not to go after this person myself for many reasons. I get the sense of deja vu whenever I look at him, and that stirs a myriad of emotions on its own. My parents would not approve, well my father would be against it, my mom just wants me to be happy. I don't want to start any more family drama, I've put them through enough.

And what makes me think that this person would even consider me in that fashion. I highly doubt it. I'm just happy that this person made me realize that my heart is not made of stone, that I can in fact feel something for someone. Though its back to how it used to be. Tina likes guy, guy does not know until later on. And I'm okay with it, this time at least.

The only reason I know this is due to the fact that no power in the ******** universe could have wiped the smile off my face at work today. That and the fact that people are starting to accept me and talk to me more.

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The semblance is uncanny... gonk

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