I feel like everyday in my life I will always disappoint someone that I know at any given time of the day. Always feel like my purpose was just to fill a space in the world and nothing else. In other words, everyday that I do live and disappoint someone. It gives me the more reason of not wanting to live. What's the point of being alive if I can't even find one person to see me to be satisfactory.
I just feel like I should just die. emo
I've done too many things that I'm not proud of. Such as defying my own parents for my own joy and pleasure. I've done things that have drove me into insanity and depression. Of course the answer is "I didn't choose the right thing to do and it was totally my fault for those choices."
I always say to myself that I can do things on my own. But really, I'm nothing without anybody. I do sometimes find my way around things but that was just luck. I would so LOVE to duplicate myself and then beat the living s**t out of me for being such an insufferable failure. I just hate myself for just me being me.
I too disappoint myself all the time, always not living under my oath.
I know I have been putting up too many journal entries of how my life sucks. I bet out there in the world, someone else has it way horrible than me. Well at least they strive to be alive. For me, all I do is just try but in the end I just want to die. I find myself to be pitiful and unworthy. I'm not even worth my own time.
If anyone can list 5 reasons of why I should not "Harm" myself, then please be open if you may do so.
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1. You'll regret it later.
2. You'll hurt the people who care about you.
3. Harming yourself won't solve anything; it just makes people get all up your a** and into your business.
4. No mistake is worth hurting yourself over.
5. You'll find yourself asking, "Now, why the hell did I do that?!"
Ross, being a teenager is all about making mistakes and learning from them. The learning part is most important, the making mistakes part comes naturally. Think about what you can pull from your mistakes and see if you learned anything. It works, take it from me.