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So I'll stay up all night with these bloodshot eyes...
When something like this happens, what do you think about?

Life.

Death.

Love.

Hate.

Your brain shorts out. Even now I'm not sure if it's really hit me yet. It's like I know, but I don't really... know. Like I just completely shut down everything just to protect myself. And I feel terrible about it... all those people who cared for him, and everybody who was his friend... it's all gone for him. And the loss of one life has thrown other people's into chaos. But I feel like I should be feeling something more. I don't know how I could; I just emotionally drained myself today and I didn't even do anything. When I first heard about it... something searing in my chest... a pain that I hadn't felt in a while, a pain that felt shared by so many people other than me.

When you have thoughts like those running through your head, what do you really think about?