So. Tonight, for some reason. I'm feeling... like the love is one way. I know it's not, I know he cares, I know he loves me... but I feel as if I'm losing him, maybe that's why I feel like this... like I'm about to cry. I could barely hold in the tears as we spoke on the phone... I love hearing his voice... it calms me normally... but today... It made me worse... I don't know why. I was fine earlier... I was happy earlier... Maybe... just maybe... I'm thinking that it's a one way love so much, I'm starting to believe it, and picking small things that seem like he doesn't care at all. Which is bullshit. I know he loves me. Why else would he ask what was wrong, multiple times? I wish... just wish. That I could hug him, and know that he indeed does love me. But I have to wait till August...to even look at him in person. September, not August. But still. Whenever I hug my friends... I wish it was him. I wish that I lived closer. I wish that I could even live close enough to drive to him. But that's all it ever will be, won't it. Just... wishes.
Blah. Please, re-assure me it won't be. That I'm not walking into something that would eventually just fizzle out before it starts...
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