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Well a while ago I had a streak of cheating on my boyfriend. A few weeks ago I told him bout all of it and everything. The first guy I ever cheated on him with I do still love. And When My boyfriend asked meh if I loved him still or not I said not. And I cannot Explain why :/. God I can't explain anything. We have been fighting for a while now. Everyday actually bout something I brought up or something I lied to him about. Last night I admitted to him that I still loved that guy. And he said "Why did you lie to me Katie. Why. Why did you have to ******** lie to meh AGAIN. I can't do this anymore I just can't the lies have to stop I'm sorry but I can't" Right as he said that I started begging for another chance and he gave it to me. I don't think I deserve him Im causing him nothing but pain and I've lost all of his trust. I got told by him last night that if i was there he would want to touch meh and wouldnt even be able to look at meh. I cried ALOT. I did'nt sleep at all last night and probably wont tonight I told him I wouldnt be able to sleep and he said "serves you right". I love him to death and I'm not going to lie to him again. I know I lost all his trust so he doesnt belive meh when I say that's all I had left in my whole ******** body to tell him. But it's true ive told him everything there is not one thing i have to hide from him now!.

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