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as i sat on the hospital bed i thought that this couldnt be to bad.i will be the same.nothing can be different.yet my body wasnt the same...it never will be...i soon began to think that my thought were wrong.that i could change for life...
my mom sat on the end of the bed.covering her face with her hands.i could hear her trying to breathe...she was crying...my mom never liked me to see her when shes that way...she says its not good for me to see my own mother cry...
the doctor walks in this a clipboard in his hand...he gives a loud sigh and he looks at his clip board...my mom got up"is everything ok.how was the tests?" the doctor didnt smile or frown,he just kept on looking at his clip board...
"miss your son isnt doing well.his bones are weak and his breathing isnt well.on the other hand his rist is doing alot better than before...but there is one more thing i would like to say...."...the doctor tryed to think one how to tell my mom the news...."...your...son...has...advanced cancer"
once i heard those words my stomach began to jump and my heart felt as if it was slowing down...like i began to die slowly by every second that went by....my life would never be the same....
my mom stood in shock..she couldnt say anything..she just hung her head..trying to stop her self from crying infront of me....but she walks over to me,taking my hand.for the first time that day i seen my mother cry....the first time i seen her this way.....and all for this..just for this...
now today i stand with a secret in my hand...holding it but now i gusse its time to tell something else about me....now im different....very different...distant from the world were you live until your old and your health is the way its suposed to be...and the world were you die slowly by the second because your not.....today i stand tall wishing this was just a dream...and i would wake up soon from this nightmare...but when i wake up my life will already be at its last minuet....leaveing me trying to breathe but....my heart will soon give up on me....