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I notice im always arould you.But is it cause i hate you?love you?or just paranoia?I thought i saw my own feelings clearly i thought i was over you.The reason im telling you this is because ive learned no matter what happens ill never be over you.I mean you give me mixed signals im so confused sad .dose your heart and mind tell you something diffent?I deadcated this whole year to finding out how you fell but you dident want that did you?For example everytime i was with someone i never opened up i wanted to open up to you but you always pushed me away then pulled me back leaveing me crying alone sure people came up and said whats wrong i told them nothing and said not to worrie but i was dead inside i didnt want anyone bothering you over me cause appently i wasent that important to you but you didnt want me wondering off you just wanted to keep on hurting me i was scared that you dident like me so i lied to myself saything that kiss ment something to you but it was all a lie.Everytime i see you these memorys come back to my mind i wanna cry my eyes out but at the same time i dont want you to worrie cause no matter what you did or how you treated me how many tears i cryed i always came back to you...........I was prepared to open up for the 1st time in my life im afraid to show my true feelings cause i dnt wannna get hurt and when i did show them i got hurt.

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