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Two Weeks Already
Hello everyone, it's now been two weeks since I have left the hospital. Did I mention how much I despised that place? I was there for nothing, well not completely nothing. I ended up going there because of my schizophrenic hallucinations. After all that time, I learned nothing! Nothing changed, I still hear things and see things, and in fact, today in school I had an episode. It isn't fair that I'm the only one who can see the things I see and hear the things that I hear. I know people may have similar problems, but I believe that no one can fully comprehend my situation. I know that life isn't fair but this is just ridiculous. I don't want to spend the rest of my life seeing things and hearing things, even though there is a high chance that I have to live through it. I want some way to cope with my annoying problem. I know I have already said this but it must be said again..."I hate living my life right now, I wish my problem would go away". But anyways, back to how my day went. My day was horrible, I embarrassed myself because of the stupid medication I take to keep the hallucinations away, and some anti-depressants and one to control my outbursts. They don't even work... I'm starting to get really pissed off. I also embarrassed myself in front of this girl I like but god knows she will reject me so yeah. I know, I know, I have such a low self esteem, but what do you think will happen with a Schizophrenic teenager trying to go out with a sexy thing like her. If she reads this she will know that it's her I'm talking about. After my episode today, I called my mom and told her to pick me up and she did, I wonder what people will say tomorrow when they find out I had an episode. But that's it for now, I will write again when I feel the need to vent. Oh yeah and feel free to comment, thanks for reading this, you have shown that you have the potential to be a TRUE friend.
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