i cannot concentrate on anything. all that is going through my head right now is what i should do. i think he wants me to walk away. it will make things easier for him, i think. but if that is what he wants then why will he not just tell me... my head hurts so bad and i cannot think... i have a final tomorrow and all i can think about is this stupid boy who probably does not spare me a passing thought on a normal day.
i think that i don't want this. i think that i know somewhere that it is obvious he is either just using me or he just does not care for my well being.
i feel like i am losing my sanity. i want to explode. i want to stop crying and hurting over something so stupid as love. i don't want to feel that. this is ridiculous. i am too young to feel this.
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