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at this point i have no clue where im at in life...feel like im just wasting my time and life right now...
certian people in my life are being shady and keeping things from me...it makes me wonder if everything I've done for these people were for nothing. All I've ever done was be a kind and generous person (so i thought) but it seems I'm being taken advantage of. Was i meant to be someone's pillow or do I have a higher purpose...and if i do when will i see or realize it?
Some of you may guess who I'm talking about and others will have no clue...if you dont have a clue its better not to try and figure it out, itll hurt your brain

Most don't know this but through my life (which if you want to know more about me ask i'll post more in here) ive been through alot. i learn to bottle up all of my emotions and once in awhile they vent out in an aggresive rage. NOT physical but verbal. now if i were fly off the handle with one of my fits of rage would that turn you away from me? make you change you whole opinion of me? (i hope not) but it has to one, i thought to be very special person, and now she seems to be looking elsewhere for things i can no longer please her with (so it seems)

Well its given me my old adittude back which means ill be (and have been) detaching myself from everything i like and people i care for...i used to have a liitle sayin i made up in my depression and i think ill start usin it again, its quite fitting for what is happenenig to me now so if im acting different or strangely it because...


I am nothing...
Noone...
Nobody...
Nomore....