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The backdrop to my life is truly chaos. As today I was reminded of a foolish event which I wish never to repeat. I look back at what I was and Realize that the person I was then has changed. Maybe for the better maybe for the worst but I feel that I can do what I must to thrive. Apathy is my greatest enemy. It infects my bones like a virus and I can't seem to shake it. My school grades suffer because of this. I just found out that two of the most interesting people I've met this whole year are leaving me in the year to come. My older brother and a sister which have guided me along a path I would have otherwise not have taken. I'm grateful. Brian and Krysta. It is my fate to be ephemeral. I come into the life of others for a brief moment in time and then I disappear. I hope my memories of them will last into old age. I find myself once in awhile have a moment of maybe insanity or maybe just inner peace. I can't tell either way but as I was walking I was it be a feeling of being invincible. It was wonderfully freeing.

Song Listening to while writing this:
Darkest Nights
By:As I Lay Dying