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The two people I lurv and adore because if they died, I'd put a bullet in my brain.


Flurby
I could never imagine what life here in AZ would be like with out the shelter of your kind and gentle heart.I mean, where would I be now? Dead, probably. How would I put those support beams in to hold my unstable bridge up by myself? It would worsen it, that's for sure. How would I have all that I have now? Good looks, I guess. blaugh
I remember when we first met; summer of '06. Swimming lessons. I had been bumped up a level, and your brother Andy was babbling on and on about something incredibly ridiculous. Whack! Didn't even see you get in the pool, but you did obviously. "Andy, will you shut up? You'll make the her ears bleed!" And we struck up a conversation and became buddies.
Then I started going to Sunset Canyon, and who do I see in the corner desk of the class room? "Yooouuu... I know you!" you said, pointing at me. blaugh We got the weirdest looks from the other kids,it was hysterical! xd
And now, here we are; you add the color to my Skittles (no I am not calling you a lesbian, gawsh. rolleyes ), and you've helped me a lot, and I appreciate and love my asian invasion sister!!!

Luffles
When I met you at first, I thought I couldn't handle your... well, : rofl mrgreen --that. But I was drawn in by how
amazing,
irresistible,
beautiful,
sensitive,
reassuring,
comforting,
understanding,
encouraging,
unique,
loving,
caring,
witty,
lovable,
funny, and
bubbly you are.
At that time we were two totally different people; you liked techno, I preferred the kind of music that promised shrieking guitars and whiny emo boys. You were always mrgreen blaugh , while I was emo stare . Of course, it wasn't until two weeks later that we became thisclose. Even when I was already with someone, you seemed to be the multi colored glow stick in the dark closet in my eyes. The ones that are fresh from the packages out of the freezer. When the break up happened, I talked to you. A lot, and by then, thisclose became a jumble of two words squished together. Each day we talked, I loved you even more. I love how I can never get mad at you, I can never have those serious over the top arguments with you over small things.
I missed you tremendously when I was hospitalized those two times... I'll be straight up honest, I lied to the councilors times just to get out of there and see you again. And to put it frankly, you were the most enthusiastic when I came back. Both times. Then school went out, and it broke my heart to know that I wouldn't be able to see you for a full year. So when school came back, I would beg for my parents to let me go see you guys at the front of the school, and most of the time they'd say no out of fear of me running into Audra and ripping her throat out, something they knew that I would never do.
Now it's summer break of '09. You start to get on Gaia more often, so that made me happy.
It was somewhere around the beginning of June that it finally clicked in my brain how much I really, really like love you and care for you.
I'll admit, my mind went into the "what if/ how do I/should I/maybe not/maybe" mode, but after a few encouraging words from a good friend (whose name will go down in history, forever blessed), I managed to get the courage. I finally tell you how I feel, and thank freaking God, you feel the same.
I'm sure I've told you this, but I'm putting it out there again;
First thing's first; I'd take a bullet for you, I'd die for you, I'd go to any length for you, and if you were dying from heart cancer, I'd be more than willing to donate my own.
I'm always here for you to talk to, I'll help you get through the ups and downs, my shoulder is open for you to cry on. I won't ever ever lie to you, I won't ever hurt you, you can ask me any question if it's bothering you, I'll try to give the most legitimate answer. And you know me; need a hug? I've got full stock of them.
So now, I'm yours to love and I'll love you even more.
I love you, Genna.