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What a headache. I could say so much, but it can be taken as me being self-centered, or a victim. I can say little to defend myself against the onslaught of perpetual bullshit. Its as if I am not allowed to defend myself sometimes. I personally think I do not deserve always being in a fight with someone, its not fair. If another one of my friends were to say the exact same thing I would, they wouldn't get treated like this - what makes me so special? Its a simple matter of why. Its so hard to pick and choose words these days, since any combination will yield the same result. I'm always told I run away, maybe its better that I did because I'm tired of always being told the things I already know. I already know I'm a lot of bad things, I just don't like it when people tell me, because its like a bandaid being torn off before the wound is healed. You take some of the skin with the tear. So obviously it hurts. Its so sad that I can predict that people would say to each sentence I write. Am I that predictable, or am I at the point where I just can't say anything anymore? If I was Tiffany and said these things, I wouldn't get treated like this. And thats a bloody fact. I'm tired of always fighting with people, do I have a sign on my head that says "please make start s**t with me"? Just stop, just bloody hell stop. Even if I try to be decent and honest, I get the same result. I might as well just be downright nasty if the same thing will happen. It'd be more enjoyable for me to say how much so-and-so is a "blah blah blah" but you know what, I'm a lot better than that. Despite what people may think, I am. I may be miserable, lonely and pathetic. But that gives no one the right to make me feel even worse about it. Goodnight, and have pleasant dreams. I expect this to be filled with wonderful messages, lets see how right I am.

Posted by: ShaIIow Wed Dec 14, 2005 @ 09:04am

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Commented on: Wed Dec 14, 2005 @ 04:54pm


	Then don't make other people feel like s**t. let's see in the cycle 1) I"m a vitcum who dose have the right to defend herself 2)if it was tiffa things would be diffrent you know why do you think people are predictible? because you know what your doing is wrnog and you don't want to fix them. there you only justifications and there outdated. by the way if you notice 70% of them I'm just explaining what your doing. if you would like to teel people what you mean there always talking to the people way and not yelling which your so fond of.

Commented on: Wed Dec 14, 2005 @ 06:26pm


	And you are the only person that likes to pick apart everything I say thinking that what you are saying is the unabridged truth. Stop making yourself look so high and mighty John. You know it would be ******** different if Tiffany were to say the same things I would, if anyone else would just scream the same things I would no one would go and say "you're this and this and this" but no, it has to be me that you have to always go after and it makes me sick. Why don't you just do yourself the favor and GO AWAY.

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Commented on: Wed Dec 14, 2005 @ 06:27pm


	alright, blighton, alow me a question, if you will. why is it so important to you to repeatedly point out these problems that she so obviously has? She said that she knows about them, but she can't really heal from them when idiots like you are constantly pestering said wounds. leave be and ******** off, neh?

Commented on: Wed Dec 14, 2005 @ 06:30pm


	D: If I was in Utah, I'd give you a high five right now. Thank you for putting into words what my brain can'y possibly do right now.

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Commented on: Wed Dec 14, 2005 @ 06:52pm


	bleagh, don't go to Utah. you either have Starfish, people who simply don't care, or people who care WAY too much, and are willing to tell you how to be better... xp

Commented on: Wed Dec 14, 2005 @ 07:07pm


	I'd be hanged if I was in Utah. gonk

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Commented on: Thu Dec 15, 2005 @ 12:25am


	not unless you're a Bright and Shiny Christmas light. Mormons prefer burnings at the stake.

Commented on: Thu Dec 15, 2005 @ 04:14am


	Se Ga Takai the answer is simple. get a brain and read back. I gave her two months but she still acted like herself. any person that's better then her she cries that we hurt her and we "rub in her happiness" you know why I do this because my friend is hurt by this and is the cause. By making my self the main target I'm letting off steam from her. even though she is attacking her and calling her a selfish b***h. that which you donot see.

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Commented on: Thu Dec 15, 2005 @ 04:37am


	John, shut up. Just shut up. I act like myself for one reason and one reason only, because I LIKE being myself and will never change for the likes of you. You need to stop defending Alexia, she wants to be bitchy to me, so I will be a b***h back to her. I'm tired of her and its NOT YOUR PROBLEM.

Commented on: Thu Dec 15, 2005 @ 05:10am


	fine keep on being "the alchololic bastured preaching about the evils of narcotics" (oingo boingo). sure let let the almighty tina who marched on so many crusades just to b*h at people who hurt her friends. you know I've been doing everything you do latly and it's clear when you can't take it the other way around. Just like you friend said id you like who you are then why bh? just shut the ******* up and quit crying that your world is horrible. rember you love who you are so why should you feel bitterness and anger? why can't you be happy for others? or is it that the truth is in front of you? not caring for others brings you emptyness as those count less hours on your computers or the one's at ivc vegitating on pixels leave you with no purpose in life but to run some where.

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Commented on: Thu Dec 15, 2005 @ 05:14am


	'get a brain and read back'? you sound like a ****** republican. and like a republican, you will not leave us the **** alone. get off of tina's back or i will yank you off her back. and then i will kick your a because you're trying to look like the ****** martyr. this is a problem alexia and tina need to fix themselves. i am not the only person who has this wild theory. i am also not the only person who knows that you have done some serious st top alexia in your time. you are more of a hypocrite than tina and i combined-not to mention more of a shitty person than tina and i combined. and everytime you would do something to hurt alexia, she would come and tell me about it with tears in her eyes. sure, we have done some things to her too(because denying these accusations you will give me after you read this comment would be sinking down to your level), but tina has never sexually assaulter her, has she? i don't know how many times i will have to say this to you, but LEAVE TINA THE ******** ALONE!!!!

Commented on: Thu Dec 15, 2005 @ 05:20am


	. You know how stupid you sound. This whole matter never concerned you and yet you push yourself into it just to give yourself a reason to b*h at me and how much you hate what I have become. Oh schweethart, I can bh about whatever I want, when I want, it doesn't concern you. To what you call bitching, I call venting. You just keep harping on the fact that I hurt Alexia's feelings, when she already hurt mine. OH BUT it doesn't matter that she hurt my feelings, you just need an excuse to bh at me. I AM happy for others, but not when they rubbed it in my face when I was clearly depressed. Oh but to you this is an excuse, just like everything I'm writing right now. So just go the **** away John. Stop trying to be a **** matyr. You think I spend my entire life online. Well you're a misinformed piece of st, I like going online to get away from the crap I deal with on a daily basis, so do a lot of people so you have no right to throw that in my face b*****d. Even if we talked this face to face, I will not be on good terms with you. I don't like you, you don't like me. Get used to it.

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Commented on: Fri Dec 16, 2005 @ 12:16am


	"Get a Brain"? You have the audacity to tell me to "Get a Brain"? You carry teh grammer and punctuation of a ten year-old, you're sitting here harrassing an already stressed out Woman, and you're telling me to "Get a Brain"? I have a brain, dumbass, 147 IQ, and an understanding of where she is right now, I keep getting some of the same st thrown at me. And no, you are not "Letting off Steam", you're building it. Do you really think that you're are relieving any stress from Hakumei? You're a Dumbass. If anything, you're just making everything worse, and you're making alot of enemies. Back off, ****** off, and leave be. This is Harrassment, you've been asked many times to leave, and Hakumei holds every right to ask for you to be banned.

Commented on: Fri Dec 16, 2005 @ 02:06am


	Arigato. crying

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