Its got to be over a year if not close to it since I even wrote in this. The first and last time being because I was still suffering from a broken heart.
Isn't it funny how your life can seem ok, your content with it. But then what seems out of nowhere a dark cloud comes in and consumes you. All emotion turned to anger and sadness.
I know everyone goes thru moments like that. No one is ever excluded, sooner or later it comes. I've even been around enough that its happened to many times to count it seems. Again, I'm sure I'm not the only one.
I find the majority of the time I write, such as now, or draw when I'm in that cloud. How sad it seems. To only write or draw things of what some would consider beauty over such a sorrowful moment.
I feel like I'm in the middle of that cloud, with no light in sight. The light comes eventually, but it always seems like it takes an eternity to get there. All you can do till then is feel cold and alone. No warmth what so ever. And even though you know there is love and support all around you, it just feels so faded as if its not there at all. Because you cant touch it it doesn't feel like its there.
I'm such a funny character... to let myself fall into darkness
sailor silver star1 · Sun Jun 28, 2009 @ 03:25am · 0 Comments |