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Banned from being myself, a horrid truth I must face now.

When I was younger, let's say 5-6 years of age my mother loved me to talk to her. To hear my accomplishments, what I've learned, and the praises I earned from a teacher.
Now she wants me to talk to her and I try, I really do but she ends up lecturing me about what I've done. I volunteer at the zoo and I've Done most of the jobs, making me a a perfect teacher for the other Jzs (junior zookeepers) I told her this and I got in response "Well I hope you're not being bossy, you know how you can be" I tell that the person in charge of us at out station instructed me to show them certain tasks so she can finish hers. I get "Well don't be a show off..." I tell her of all the things I did and that compliments earned from Shanna. "Don't act like your better then others because...". Lastly I tell her how I helped the other Jzs when they messed up or forgot how to do something as she says "well you don't have to always correct everyone, thats not always a good thing. I mean it's your personality..."And how i should stop criticizing people.

BLAH!BLAH! BLAH! and she says it all in a caring tone, trying to act friendly when she just wants me to be like every other gray blob in this world. quiet, and go with the flow. No, I am an individual and My personality was what she use to love about me now It's a burden to my way to an ordinary life. I don't want an ordinary like, I like the praise, the responsibly. I miss the feeling of having my mother there to catch me, to listen, to help me be me. Now she "tries to help me be a a better person in society" Well ******** that! I do fit in, with the misfits. I'm a born leader,Artist, Critique, A me, one of a kind.

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Lastly, I have a nervous cough and she tells me to calm down, I can't stop it, It's just another part of Me.