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I looked around only seeing a bathtub, no shower. I hated baths. But the sooner I get it over with, the sooner I can see Bev. The moment I stepped into the tub my vision blurred. I sat in the water quickly so that I wouldn’t fall.
I hovered about a room. My family was crowded around a bed. With me on it. I looked less bloody than I did in the car, yet I was in no better condition. Slowly I brought my feet to the floor. My mother was being held by my uncle Craig. She was sobbing. I forced myself to be seen. It was harder than it looked. At first nobody saw me, but then Stefan my life long friend gasped.
“Everybody look! She’s here with us!” he stood up so fast that he almost upset his chair.
My mother looked around and stopped when she saw me.
Somehow I made my voice come out, yet it wasn’t my voice. “I know I never really told you guys this a lot but… I love each and everyone of you more than you think. I felt no pain. It was instant. Please remember me from what I was and not how I look there.” I could feel my self getting dimmer.
“I love you too baby. Why’d you leave me?” my mothers voice quivered.
“I didn’t want to mom. I didn’t want to leave. I wanted to get old with all of you…I must go. I can not stay any longer. Love you….” I felt myself return to my own body just as a hot cup of water got dunked on my head.
I coughed and looked around to see a maid looking at me politely.
“Is there anything else I may do for you?”
“No… what did you do?”
“I just washed your hair since that is all I am allowed to do for now. You must wash your own body miss. And your hair dresser will be here within five minutes”
“Oh…thank you? I guess you can leave…”
“Thank you miss” with a curtsy she left my room.
I washed my body with a lavender smelling soap. Slowly I stood up. Feeling older than possible. My poor family… How could I get on without my mother? I stood up and wrapped my self in a towel just as a small lady walked in.
“Are you the hair dresser?” I asked for she carried no supplies.
“Yes miss. Please bring out your dresses”
Well that’s easy I thought since I only had two of them…. Or so I thought. In the closet was a 6 foot long roll out dress cart.
“Oh my….” Obeying the hair dressers wishes I rolled the cart out for her to see.
“Hm…. This one shall do for tonight’s dinner” she said pulling out a deep purple silk dress.
She handed me the dress. I took it and just stood there.
“Well get in the dress. The sooner you get the dress on, the sooner I may begin” she said bluntly.
“Okay…” I didn’t like changing in front of people.
It only took her 20 minutes to get my hair up and in shape.
“When you get back you will want to take all the pins out. Unless you would want a headache” she said as she left my room.
“I hope someone will be able to show me there other wise I will get lost…” I stopped mid sentence since Clarinda was standing at in my door way.
“Please miss, dinner is ready”
“Coming” I had to control my walking for I wanted to run to Beverly.
We went down three flights of stairs before reaching a big wooden door, with a gentleman standing at it.
“You must wait until he announces you and taps three times, before you enter. And when you enter, hold up part of your dress with your left hand and grip the railing with your right hand. Are you ready?” Clarinda asked.
“Um.. Yes?” I grabbed a bit of my dress on my left side and flexed my right hand hoping I wouldn’t trip going down any stairs.
The gentleman nodded and opened the both the doors.
“Announcing her Lady Amber” he tapped a cane on the floor three times. Each echoed in my ear.
He moved out of the door way as I descended the stairs. I held my head up; only looking for Beverly with my eyes. Surprisingly the room was full. And everyone was bowing to me. Carefully I curtsied back. Jarred came to my elbow.
“I will escort you to your table Amber. You are to sit with only a few people for now”
“Okay. Why are you allowed to call me Amber when no one else it?”
“We shall talk about that later but for now… I would like you to eat some dinner” Jarred said planting me in front of a small table with only one person sitting at it.
“Oh Beverly!! I am so sorry!” I sobbed falling into a chair.
“Amber? Oh my… You’ve changed… Your fine! I feel better than ever. I didn’t feel anything and I saw my parents. They were crying and…I tried to talk to them but they freaked out” her lips quivered.
“So have you. They don’t believe in spirits do they?” I asked whipping my eyes with my hands.
“Not by much. I didn’t even get much taller. Like you did. No, they don’t” she sighed.