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one day, me and friend melody
were at a park near her house
she doesn't belong in my school district,
but she helped me through so much,
and i love her,
but then, this story,
she couldn't save me,

so we were at the park.
walking around, talking,
[remember, we're in fourth grade]
when we meet someone new,
she's nice, she's chill,
so we start hanging out with her,
over melody's house, over mine,
never over hers, never a sleepover,
until one day,
me and melody were supposed to sleepover her house,
melody couldn't stay the night,
some stuff with her parents divorce,
so i stayed alone.
at around one am,
while her parents were asleep,
she comes in, with a knife,

she told me, in these exact words,
"yer worthless.
you dunt deserve to live."
[remember, still in fourth grade.]
and she starting slicing me all over.
then i really did feel worthless.

it wasn't until a few years later,
i found out she had an obsession with knives and cutting things.
but those three years,
it killed me inside,
so i cut myself,
and everytime i did,
it reminded me of that night,
even after i learned about it,
i did cut, wanting to die,
and remembered that dreaded night.

"is it just enough fer you to breathe i'm begging, it is not enough to just have me? whoa..."