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Dear Journal,
A lot of things have been on my mind lately and I can't seem to get my head on straight. Things are so confusing. I can't stop thinking of the past, especially what happened to Dylan. I just can't forgive myself for breaking the promise we made, we promised to be with each other when one of us died, and I broke that promise. I was in school and Dylan died of lung cancer, and I wasn't there to hold his hand and say goodbye. I wasn't there to kiss his forehead when his heart made it's final beat. I wasn't there to say I love you one last time. And when I heard about his death, I was speechless, I realized that a heart has been broken twice as bad, and I didn't know what to do. I just couldn't look at myself, cause all I saw in the mirror was his face looking at me. His face gave me the look of, Why? Why did you break our promise? Why were you not here for me? Why? But after a few days, I got a letter in the mail from Dylan's brother. Inside the enevlope was a folded piece of red paper with my name on it. So i unfolded it and read;

Dear Rae,
If your reading this, I have left the Earth and went up into the clouds. The promise we made was very sweet, but I know some promises can't be kept. I just wanted to let you know that if you were not there for me, well, that is just fine. Don't feel upset, I know how busy you are with school and helping all your friends and family. So, don't cry anymore my babygirl, because I will always love you and I will never forget the amazing times we had together. Just remember, I'll always be with you, through thick and thin, through sickness and in health, through high school and through college, through love and heart break. I will always love you, forever and always.
Love,
Dylan <3

When I read, I brust into tears. The boy i loved would always love me, even if I broke a very special promise, even if I was someone else. I realized that he will always love me, and that was all that mattered to me. And you know what, I'll always love him, no matter where he is, no matter who he is, because he was my life, my soul, my shoulder to cry on, my true love, and thats all that matters to me. And what matters now is that he is'nt suffering from the pain anymore, he is healthy and living life like he was just born, in heaven.