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I had this dream, and it was terrifying.....I had decided that I was not worthy to be on this earth. I was going to do everyone a favor, and commit suicide. I had taken a long steak knife and thrust it through my abdomen, until it came out the other side. I was lying in a pool of my own blood. The man I love was yelling. His eyes were wet. He whispered "I love you, please don't die." (Remember its just a dream) Then I remembered that he was the one reason I stayed in this wretched world. When I was around him, he made everything glow with neon light...He made it feel like every nerve ending in my body was a live wire...He made my wretched world electroluminescent.... Lost and confused, I realized my vision was fading...That was the most horrifying part...I cant even put into words how terrible it felt...Realizing there was no going back to that electroluminescent world I had taken for granted...The last thing I remember was his tears streaming down his face...mingling with blood on the floor...