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R.I.P.= Art, Lil Man, Chille, Trappa Jr., Da Ese's, Da Ara's, DJ Money Loc's, Money, Yung Grinder, Popz, Trappaz Heart, So many more..... I love you all... save a place for me up ther

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xtleeM6Epzs

(Intro)
ey... this is trappa... no wait.. I'm Armen. Armen is speaking now ******** trappa until this is over. This is coming straight from my heart. What i go through every single day and night. Is only to survive and protect my family. But instead my loved ones die in my hands. Is this punishment god? i don't no. But what i do know.... I wish it was me instead.

(verse)(0:32)
Ive been grindin ever since i 1st cried

Tired of all these ******** gunfights

i dont want the police tellin ma family that i died

i just cant runaway from my 2nd life

posted up, waitin for da end of each night

my heart skipps a beat everytime i hear ma mom cry

im on strike 3 but i dont care take me already

im nervous when im aiming but i still keep the gat steady

so take me, take me, god just take me, just end me

put knives around me and keep it on blending (3 sec pause)

......WAIT, i have a family to look after, god i aint ready

kiss my lil sisters everynight and give them their teddy

been shot 7 times already, safer for my family if i died

god could be watching over me... Maby

moma tellin me to go look for a perfect ladie

i say "i dont need to look for bullshit"

but if i take a bullet for my family from an pistol Clip

dont give me no ******** Medic Kit

rather pass me da cancer stick

and keep da stoge lit

rather die as thug then sum crying a** bich

there are alot of things i wish i could of fixed

my lil cousin Art im sorry what i put you thru

i didnt no those bullets wer gunna hurt you

ever since then ive been on high alert

now those mutha ******** are 6 feet under the dirt

oh my god i didnt no losing so many loved ones would hurt

before i pull this trigger 2 my dome i wanna say sumtihn 1st

i have many things i gotta let out

am i gunna live peacefully? i doubt

i wanna scream to the heavens, yell, and shout

WHY DA ******** IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME!

instead of god helping my eyes starts to bleed.....