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well my boss has told me at GSP that next month he was going to give me a raise.
which is cool, I didn't think I would have been working at GSP this long it has almost been a year... scary.
But I'm not sure what I'm going to do when I go back to school. I not fully accepted to fullerton yet. I don't know if I'll be able to handle going to fullerton and keep both jobs. I don't really feel ready to go to fullerton... I'm not 100% sure of what I want my major to be... I want to major in art but the as time has gone by the less I've been drawing. I don't know why. I feel I truely lost myself when I spent less and less time drawing. I still feel lost.
I tell my friends that once I go to fullerton that I'm never going to see them again. Truthfully I know this is not true. I'll still see them at times. But I've realized what I'm afraid of is not being involed with thier lives. I'm afraid of losing conntact, increasing the bond making memories.
*sigh* tomorrow I should go to the vampire's and get my blood drawn for my doc appointment next week. but I really don't want to, I hate getting my blood taken. I know I have to, I'll force myself to go, hopefully in time for my doc to get the results.