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I just thought it would be ******** ducky if I could crawl in a hole and die when I heard about you... At least I said we could try to be friends!!! Maybe not if all you do is make me want to sink to the bottom of the ocean!!! I mean the deepest part where the only thing that lives is coral!!! GOD I HATE IT WHEN YOU MAKE ME FEEL THIS WAY!!!! maybe now you'll talk to me more, but whatever... If you die it gives my a reason to take my own life... Maybe I'll end up in hell and you can go to heaven... I can't take my friends talking about you it's they don't care about me either!!! Logan wanted to know if you had a cell to tell you this, but I said no I'd be ******** happy to tell you myself!!! I guess in the end I wanted to thank you for making feel the lowest of the low!!!! THANKS A LOT!!!!!! emo

I'm sorry I just had to get it out. Plus i few weeks ago rachel told me you were going to break up with me then when i called you and you didn't mention anything about i thought everything was ok then at orientation when you did break up with me it just stung even worse then it should have. I'm reallysorry and i hope we can still be friends but i'll understand if you don't want to be.

Chris, cutting yourself won't do anything. Everyone has a first love,when it ends you think its the most horrible thing ever...but things fall back into place. and you realize that significant others aren't really everything. i remember my first breakup and i was a ******** pansy about it. things happen and you just gotta take it as it comes. Your home or family DOESN'T SUCK. you jerk. lol. jk. everyone in your family loves and cares about you very much. Same as your friends. I'll admit normal friends aren't the same as having a relationship with someone... but they're are still your friends. You don't want to die...do you have any idea how boring that would be? lol. well i hope you get through this soon enough. i know you will. =] .