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of course i can't be on gaia as much as i would love to.
i've lost my home.
most my friends
the love of my life for 3years
my mother
my video games
and now my lil cousin.

i can't write anymore.
i can't eat.
i can't play sports
i can't say what i want
and now i've missed so much school i'm behind.

my life has always sucked. each year something has to go wrong....
and this year...damn i had hope this year....my last goddamn year...

no. i stopped taking my prozac.
i felt no need. all that s**t and even on my pills i was still sad.
i haven't told my friends any of this. cause really. who would care and whatcould they do other than say sorry.
i don't want nor need a sorry.
i'm sorry my damn self....
i really...i just really....i want to be gone
not like die....but just...be gone..be free of..everything.

i wanna be one of those kids who only has to worry about a quiz.
i don't like havin to wake up from where ever i just happen to be. find clean s**t to wear .find a ride to school. find a way to get lunch. and then by 3rd bell i need to make sure i can get home.