So a lot is going on right now and I am going crazy. College is already stressing me out and I miss my bf, family, and friends from home like crazy. I think the only good thing here is dance, well and my room mates. My roomies are super cool and I am glad things worked out because I went in blind this year.
I had to take two exams this week and the 1st one turned out ok, but the 2nd one I wasn't as lucky with. I got a C on my Psych exam which isn't fantastic, but way better than how I did when I took Intro to Psych last year. Today I got my Astronomy exam grade and I got a D+
sad I know I still have a lot of time to bring that grade up and I know I have to study more for the next one. I just am getting so frustrated with myself about school and just life in general.
I know things will work out in the end, but I don't know when they will and that bothers me. i can't go on like this forever, I think the stress might just kill me. I have so many projects I have to do and I am trying to keep from breaking down. Its a mix of things..... between school, not having my bf here, missing him, and being a little home sick its starting to get overwhelming. I mean I like college and everything, but I can only take so much at one time. Ugh and I have 4 years of this left....I hope I can make it out alive.
At least through all of this I know my bf will be there for me because that is how sweet and unselfish he is. He wants me to be happy and not stressed. I know that even though we don't see each other a lot that he loves me and that no matter what I go through or what our relationship goes through, we will be together. I am 100% sure that we will be together forever. Knowing at the end of the day if I get a bad grade on a test, break down, get in a fight with him or someone else, or am just really stressed out that he will make me feel better and love me and still be there for me and that we will be fine. Thats all that matters right now, that I have him and I continue to try to succeed in school.
Well now I got some things of my mind....time to go do some homework and GREYS ANATOMY later!! YAY!! I am so excited! anway I will write in this thing later.
Much Love,
Jenni
 balletfreak2008 · Thu Sep 24, 2009 @ 09:24pm · 0 Comments |
