Wow this is probably the shortest time between journal entries in a long time. I just needed to type, I am procrastinating (of course) on reading an article for my Psych class that is in about an hour. I have said this in the past, but I plan to roll with the punches that are thrown at me. I am going to focus on completing my last semester before the College of Education with a bang (meaning passing all of my classes). It is midterm week, so it is time to push myself as hard as I can go and strive to be a better students and group member. I have made a lot of mistakes in my past, surprisingly none of them really pertain to my education, I am proud of the fact that things haven't really affected my learning.
I am currently working on building myself back up, which isn't that hard these days. I have let go of my past and am trying to move on and do what is best for me. I also worry about other people, but right now I am trying to focus on myself. I talked to my mom yesterday and I have decided that I have had to sacrifice my relationships (with friends and significant others) because of school. Unfortunately, it will most likely always be that way....I am not saying I will be a work driven individual, but school will always be a part of my life and I will strive to be the best teacher I can be even if that means risking my love life. Although it isn't just because of school, it is because I am a different person, I have grown, and have changed a lot since I have been at college. My best friend from home told me earlier this year that I changed and I really have. This same person that told me this, was someone I relied on a lot while I have been here this year, we both leaned on each other, but things have changed. She has a boyfriend here, who she can't detach herself from. I can't rely on her anymore, she took her name off our housing placement for next year and now I am once again out to fend for myself. I am not saying that I won't trust people, but the last few weeks have really worn on my views on my judgment.
I guess I just need to focus on school and hope that everything else falls into place. The people that are meant to be in my life long term will still be there no matter how much we talk or how much we see each other.
Well I guess I should go read....this wasn't exciting or anything just thoughts I needed to get down.
Have a great rest of the week and have a great weekend my friends,
Jenni
 balletfreak2008 · Thu Feb 23, 2012 @ 06:00pm · 0 Comments |
