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My heart can only take so much, everyday its being ripped apart, i feel alone, sad and unloved, i wish everyone would stop hateing , i feel as though i was never ment to be loved. everyone always says they love me, but in reality those people who say that always make me cry and i never feel any "love" from thembecause u KNOW when someone loves you, i just feel....i once knew that feeling...but now it has gone, and i dont want to be here
what is the point my life is only people hateing, i always try to forget it and think happy thoughts but 14 years of this ******** bullshit and nothing NOTHING has changed i am still hated for everything i am , no one respects me, or REALLY loves me
i am so tired of forgiveing peopel then haveing them turn on me once again....
i cry everynight wishing that one day all this hate will go away anf that i will be loved by someone anyone, but things never have been going good for me, i pray and pray for happyness, but things only seem to get worse, no matter how bad they get i still belive in god i still do, eventhoguh sometimes bad thoughts in my head try to tell me otherwise, i try not to listen to them. if only i am loved even for a little while, i will be able to move on and finaly die, even for a day i am loved then i wouldnt have to be here anymore