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yesterday was horrible....very very horrible....
my sister took me off the computer when i only got on it for some minutes " I have to do my homework" she says. she lies...she just got on to watch her Edward Cullen, gosh i hate him, i began to cry on because of her lies and two because i didnt understand my math homework. i didnt try ask my famiy for help.. my dad was asleep my mom and sister weren't math experts and my brother was playing and i knew if he came back he would ignore my pleads for help. i cried,i cried, i cried because i was alone in my world, i cried because my family ignored me, cried because my dad was asleep and is the only one for our family to have food and a roof over our head. i cried, i cried hard. my brothers ex gf came to show me a picture she drew. it was a setting sun over a beautiful sea. i tried to smile but i couldn't. "Are you crying" she frowned. i nodded. she asked me and i told her about what happened. she sat next to my sis and lectured her. i smiled 'she is the only person who truely cares' i cried i cried my mom came and told me to stop crying. my sis finally helped me but when i finished my brother came and his ex gf told him everything. i looked at him with plaintive eyes. he gave one of his smiles that is neither sad or glad. i argued that he never helps me. he just tells me "you're getting dumber" i just frown. my defender answers him. we argue back and forth my brother winning.soon we are in his room and his friend is there. my heart sinks ' hes ganna join my brothers side'. he didn't i told my brother " you only act cool around your friends to look tough but yesterday you said sorry for making me sad. he gave his emotionless smile. we bickered again. without knowing i started to cry. tears came down. why why. i looked at my brothers friend. he had pity in his eyes. my brother and his ex gf fought. they went outside i followed. my mom was watching her novella . i cried i cried. she asked why i cry ' dont act like you don't know'. i told her im ignored in this family. if i try to talk to her she too busy..watching TV . she listened. i thought she was ganna frown. i felt like something hit my stomach. she was laughing laughing...at my facts. her youngest daughter was crying and she was laughing!! why why i shook my head in shock i backed up.she came to me and hugged i thought she was going to say sorry finally. no no she was dancing. she was dancing! i cried that was it i learned that no body cared they were laughing at me