I dont need sympathy. I dont want pity.
That disgusts me.
If you want to read this s**t about some teenager who is a spoiled brat, go ahead, shows just how much you have no life.
I want to vent. I have no one to vent to. That's how it feels. I'm slipping apart from my best friend. I'm sad. I want to cry whenever I see her because I see her going to a different girl who used to be one of my closest friends until she cheated on me by lying ... It's horrible. We're family friends. And i love her, is that why I don't talk to her? Am I afraid to? Or am I just tired of her s**t and lies?
I miss my best friend. I'm scared. I want to throw up whenever I feel like this. I feel so fat. I wish I could loose 20 lbs and have bones sticking out, bang them with hammers, bleed to death inside, and laugh.
Oh, of course I don't want that to happen to me. This is how I'm so stupid and spoiled and ungrateful! By thinking that way! I hate myself in so many ways. I used to be nice, until things started to change. I began questioning who I really was, and always being nice to other people, and allowing people to take advantage of me.
LOOK AT ALL THIS s**t. ME ME ME.
I'm horrible. I'm so mean, crude, rude, bitchy, ungrateful, stubbon, RUDE and MEAN cold hearted b***h to my parents. I wish I could love them more, be more polite.
I sometimes wish I could have a psychiatrist. You know? Talk to them? My sister had one for attempting to suicide but they were useless and just gave her meds that ******** with her brain. My dad is so infuriating and just yells at me the same way he yells at mom. Mom is ******** annoying, but I love her so much I wish I could show it more.
I hate being so ugly. No, not true. I hate FEELING ugly. I hate it so much.
I want to purge. and bury in a hole from stress.
School isn't any better. I try so hard. I fail.
And... I reward myself for stressing out? But what do I truly achieve, Augee?
What do I truly achieve?
Acting like someone else?
Musically?
Pursuing my musical passion?
Failing at school?
Being a b***h?
Being fat?
What is WITH me.
My life is good now.
Not ******** my life.
******** my attitude. ******** me for feeling secretively shitty about myself all the time, and pretending like I'm some beautiful confident queen.
******** society for thinking teenagers and or women are dramatic and emotional all the time. It's only because older people can say that because they don't ******** live with parents and women having to carry the ******** baby.
******** for having no ******** life.
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