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hi everyone.
I dont think Kalena or really anyone wants to talk....im sorta in a slump...whats new?

Sure, im part of the BOO...dont think im gonna win though...

Have you ever felt like your fighting but your still going nowhere? I have that feeling right now.
Im headed back to work today, thats where I belong anyway. I need to go and be just as enthusastic as I once was when entering the academy......

My mom was talking to me last night, a lot of it sank in. Im making many of the same problems she made when she was my age at my situation....cept she was better at it.

Well, no matter what happens...I must go to work now.....sick or not sick. I need to keep that mentality in my head.

Oh yeah, by the way, my car is broken....the radiator is trying to break on it and so I cant drive it anywhere....

Im looking at around a $700 job....but thats for the heater and a/c to be fixed as well....god knows I need those badly.

For the time being however, i have my father driving me to and from work.....no escaping work now.....not that ive ever tried to....i'll just never eat on the way to work or even stop by to get something now until my car is fixed.....
my paycheck doenst come until the 16th of this month (since the 15th is a sunday).....or somewhere around that date.


ive also been told dont bring my work home with me....its hard to not.

God im doing it again! Im thinking about work.....(sigh) im a loser.
I know what some people do but I....I just dont know.

I cant take what they take. Some take hunting, fishing, hell even painting to keep the stuff off their mind....

I used to draw but nothing ever gets my mind off that job.

Please, everyone, im begging for help.