Why do I sit here and let the pain grow, I don't know how to fix it or try and get passed it. Wallowing in this pain causes me to turn to depression and fall straight down into the deepest depth of hell. I haven't cried about it, and I don't even want to open that door to make me valunrable enough to suffer even more.
I go and cover my pain with a mask I've had all life, a few can see through it and try to help. Sadly I push them away with my walls and I suffer alone not being able to let others in....sadly the pain grows a bit more everyday. This mask will peel off and show some emotion of what I suffer but quickly I fix it to hide from the world. Sometimes I sit and think do I really deserve what is happening to me right now?
Or is this some sort of plan that will lead me to happiness...or my ending? All these things that cause me to suffer I wonder what happened for me to even be part of these events. I know one is my own damn fault for following someone and it caused me to fall the farthest into hell.
All I wish is that I wasn't so stubborn, and that I can at least let someone in.
I go and cover my pain with a mask I've had all life, a few can see through it and try to help. Sadly I push them away with my walls and I suffer alone not being able to let others in....sadly the pain grows a bit more everyday. This mask will peel off and show some emotion of what I suffer but quickly I fix it to hide from the world. Sometimes I sit and think do I really deserve what is happening to me right now?
Or is this some sort of plan that will lead me to happiness...or my ending? All these things that cause me to suffer I wonder what happened for me to even be part of these events. I know one is my own damn fault for following someone and it caused me to fall the farthest into hell.
All I wish is that I wasn't so stubborn, and that I can at least let someone in.
