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Excuse me while I rant, qiuckly.
Why did I think he was different? How could I be so stupid? I let him in, he knew me...he knew everything and then he tore it down. All that I built up, he ripped down in a matter of seconds. I hate trying to build myself back up, what did I do? I did nothing, yeah maybe I wasn't a perfect GF, but I sure tried...I tried so hard! Who knew at 19 I would find love (what I thought was true love) and once again at 19 I knew what dying felt like(also known a heart break). I hope to never have that second feeling again, it was horrible.
Okay done now, now to better things. I feel great these days, so much better than during break. I wanted him a part of my life, but now I don't. Why should I put myself through that? And even though he ripped my heart out, I don't want to cause him pain. So I will say this out loud once WE CAN'T BE FRIENDS.
Anywho let's see its week 4 Winter Semester of my Sophomore year and it is going great! My classes are all pretty demanding, but I enjoy them all. Once again I am dancing (surprise surprise)lol All the dances I am in are so much fun and really up beat and happy. Hopefully my parents can come to the show and I plan to ask my best guy friend to come as well. I can't wait, the show will be absolutely AMAZING!!! Today is a pretty chill day, my only class got canceled this morning and I don't have to go tutor until 2:30. I can't wait to see my little 2nd graders! They are sooo cute and really good readers. Tonight I am going to Meijer with my future roomie, Lisa and then we are going to dinner with our other room mates. We met Jenna last week and she seems oober nice, I believe she will be a great addition to our little apartment family. After dinner, Laker Village Programming Board (the committee I am President for) is throwing a big Valentine's Day (Single Awareness) bash! It will be a lot of fun, we have a chocolate fountain, pinata, and some games. We are making valentines for a local children's hospital. Then I have dance after that, DISCO TIME!! smile
So tonight will be busy, but so worth it. I guess I should just stop procrasinating and write my observation paper due tomorrow. I will get right on that...after a shower and some food. lol
Have a great week and weekend! (I mean you Angela, I think you may be my only audience) lol
Yours Truly,
Jni
"If you want to see a rainbow you must go through the rain... if you want true love, you must go through the pain." -Unkown
 balletfreak2008 · Wed Feb 10, 2010 @ 03:14pm · 3 Comments |
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