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The shadows of the emptiness of my heart closed in to my head and struck it down like a Lion pouncing onto a small gazelle. The impulse to serve the superior was gaining way and taking over my consciousness. The single thought of what he had told me that very day of how I will never find love and I will never get my heart back crushed my hope in my non-existence.
The life of a nobody wasn’t as easy as I had thought before and it hit me that I never should have even decided to live with my sister and my blood family. The pain of a thousand sorrows was turning my prickling skin inside-out. The thought of a missing heart and having no friends wasn’t worth it so I decided to follow the Lord Xemnas.
His forgiving self gave me a second chance for life and he also told me that if I give up all that I know, that I would never be looked down upon anymore as the weakest member of Organization XII, but instead as a strong, soon to be leader.
My power will overwhelm every one of my colleges and I will tower over them and once they bow to me soon their deaths will befall them. When that happens I will be the one which dances on their graves and laughs in pity for all of them for their souls being so weak that they couldn’t last.

By: Mikaru XVI
(Yes this is by Asumari77)
I wrote this as my OC’s thoughts as she is being struck down by the darkness and what it feels like to be a nobody is immensely un-satisfying.