So, we're nearing the homestretch! smile
I think I've made a little, itty bitty headway, as far as my relationship with God goes. Pull close, and go back to what you know. Someone making you mad? Consider what would be pleasing to God and do it. Remember to thank Him, and ask for guidance. I think it's helped because I honestly don't feel as bad off as I did before. I don't feel like I'm completely all alone all the time, that everything is falling down all around me. When I got left at the shopping center, I did feel like I was definitely being torn down. Breaking me down so He can build me up. Break and build me then, Lord.
Not to say I haven't had completely selfish moments. When I'm mad, and still know better, I'll indulge myself and be wrong. I know I shouldn't and really can't afford that type of behavior, but my plan is that one day when I'm done giving myself the attention no one else wants to, I'll do what I'm supposed to. Sometimes I just feel like no one but the Lord is in my corner, and that people in my life that I care for are doing these things on purpose for their own selves. But I don't want to bring down the mood of this entry!
So, what, 2 weeks left to Lent? Honestly it wasn't that bad this year, something I appreciate. Though not working around goodies helps a lot I guess. Silver lining to getting fired? I hope to continue my progress, it would be a dream come true to get down to a figure that maybe he could appreciate....then I could fight with full force. I still love him, you know, even after all this.
At this point in life, my only dream is to have the person I love so much in my life. Maybe then, after that, I'll see about finding other productive things to do. But anyways! I honestly think, and I might just be naive about this, that I don't need sweets. I haven't really craved them so much, aside from that day I could have sworn I smelled chocolate cake. The only thing I miss is my music, though I love the way gospel music puts me in a positive, inspired frame of mind. Hope I can keep that going! Though I will be getting that Alicia Keys CD as a gift to myself for Easter. I can't wait to hear Try Sleeping With A Broken Heart again. My last bit of money from work. Thanks a lot, Books-A-Million, though I'm looking forward to trying to squeeze some unemployment from you as well.
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3/19/10
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