Today... I feel as if I am losing my grip on reality... as if I am becoming insane.
As predicted, everyone laughing as I entered the room.
Even the teachers did not uphold their duty, they laughed as well.
It might have of seemed like harmless fun to them but to me each laugh was like a bullet through my head.
In the back of my head i had always feared what kind of person I would be if not for this depression holding me in place.
Sometimes I even feel lucky for it, Everyone seems to love this mask that I have worn for nearly half of my life.
Was there truly a need to change? I thought to myself.
If everyone loves me... if they all wish to protect me... do I truly need to change? Again and again I would ask myself.
If I see something that resembles a person from afar I tremble.
But If not, what would I do? Would I still care who loves or hates me?
As predicted, everyone laughing as I entered the room.
Even the teachers did not uphold their duty, they laughed as well.
It might have of seemed like harmless fun to them but to me each laugh was like a bullet through my head.
In the back of my head i had always feared what kind of person I would be if not for this depression holding me in place.
Sometimes I even feel lucky for it, Everyone seems to love this mask that I have worn for nearly half of my life.
Was there truly a need to change? I thought to myself.
If everyone loves me... if they all wish to protect me... do I truly need to change? Again and again I would ask myself.
If I see something that resembles a person from afar I tremble.
But If not, what would I do? Would I still care who loves or hates me?
