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Thanks to those who have said kind things about the pictures I take, but you want to know something - they are not good.

I try those techniques that other photographers use, but sadly I'm not cut out for it.

...I kinda feel like crying, but not in the library. I'm medicore in everything I set out to do.

I thought I was alright, I liked what I took pictures of, but its plain. I'm plain. I've been told this so many times. "Tina you're not pretty, you're plain. Tina, the pictures you take are so cliche anyone can just snap a picture" Everything I am, and everything I will be will be within the confines of medicore and plain.

And you know what, I ******** tried. I try so hard, and my personal best is compared to toilet paper. I don't have up-to-date software, or primo equipment, I only work within what I have. If I were to defend my work with such excuses I'd be laughed at even more.

When your best effort is laughed at, without even being propery critiqued and sent to a beginners tutorial it makes you feel rather small. I've been doing this since I was young, and its still beginners work?

Some people are destined to be bigger than others. I just don't want to be laughed at for what I liked to do...its not even fun anymore for me.

I even ask my friends what my strong points are, they can't even find any.

I've felt like this many times in the past, but never this badly. I want to give up. Maybe I should.