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I don't understand why there is such a stigma on hate.
The concept of hate.
or having hatred.

Everyone seems so afraid of hate, being hated, and even some people seem afraid TO hate. Or at least use that word.

Rather it is due to an affinity to my patron god. My own nature/past. Or another reason which most people who know me know.

I seem to be driven by hatred.

"Hate can be a positive emotion when it forces you to better yourself"

I believe strongly in that. My self hatred, my hatred for the majority of humanity. It forces me to be what they aren't what I hate in myself, to fix it and move forward.


So tell me, tell me why it is so bad to be filled with hatred. I allow it to consume me. There's been one person who ever brought out the compassion in my heart and life. I ******** that up. hatred is simple. Its pure. I will continue with it.


Hatred is pure, its raw, its elemental.
Love is as well. The problem is, no matter how hard I search I can't find a spot for it anymore. Also its so much more complicated. Hatred is pure. its direct. its simple

Hate is also my aegis, my rampart, my walls to protect my heart and soul, I've had my heart broken a few too many times. No more.

It is me, it is what is true inside me.
So it will stay that way.
One of three things will happen
1) she'll speak to me again and maybe bring back that compassion she holds the key to that aegis to bring it down
2) someone else will do it for me. (doubtful people piss me off)
3) I will remain fueled by hate and malice

I like the third just fine
don't try to change me its not happening, ******** you.
Its how I am and how I like to be, I won't win a singular popularity contest but you know what? I don't care about having lots of friends the ones I do have are loyal and that's what matters.

If you can't handle me or have an issue with how I handle myself or things...Bye