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The voices, they are being relentless. Earlier, I lashed out at someone who is innocent. Yet, I feel no guilt at all. Is it all my fault I should ask, or is it their fault. Those fools that bullied me when I was young, there were too many of them. In real life I can get very violent, violent enough that I chased someone with a cutter. Life is harsh, I know, that's why now I became harsh as well. Since I was in 4th grade things changed for me. It was the time when I changed the most. It was the time I learned that I have more than one thought. It was time when my violence widened as I changed from a pencil to a pen to stab people when I get angry at them. It was time when I learned that I did so many things wrong and I know I will still be sinful,. it was time that I thought that if I would be able to choose whether I shall go to heaven or hell I shall go to the latter for I see myself as unworthy to go to the light. Still all of those are stepping stones for what happened today. What I did showed how sinful I really am.
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