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officially lost every single friend i ever had. I started cutting again. i have nothing to live for. and i have serious thoughts of suicide. and dont say oh you probably have someone, because i dont heres my entire day first period talking to no one next 3 periods talking to no one lunch hides in bathroom till its over. then i talk to no one some more and the worst part is the guys who were mean to me before are still being mean. they come over and say mean things like your such a freak why dont you kill yourself, and a little bit ago i freaked out when they said this and said in the halls quite loudly ya know what, i think about it all the time! so shut the hell up. and then they just stared at me and then one of them sfter school came over to me and sat next to me and said he was sorry!!!!! it shocked me but then the next day he was a absolute jerk. and i thought he was maybe a friend. it sucks sad