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wow. I know its been a while. Ive had so many things going on in life, and not all of them have been all that great. So ive been a way for a little bit. Havent been able to see or talk to many people. I just sort of feel Ive let so many people down. Ive lost contact with them or when I try to call I never get a reply. I dont know where my life is takeing me, I just wish it to be a better place. And then sometimes i wonder if it would be a better place without me. But i know i would never be able to take my own life so im stuck here till something happens. For better or worese.
On the plus side i still have my guardian plushies. yeah so what if i have plushies. and yes they have saved me on numurouse occations. So i keep them near me every night. So if anything should ever happen to me i really do want to be buried with all of my plush cabbits. I dont know. Im just so confused right now i dont know what to do with my life. cant find a better job that im qualified for and dont have the money to go to school full time. I just hope i figure something out soon.
well hopefully ill tri to check in more offten. bye for now.